Surrendered

…I’ve resisted your coos and your well planned advances despite them being precise, well thought out-successful, just as you were trained to be -in any given situation;  rote, like getting dressed.

Shirt. Check.
Pants. Check.
******. Check.
Seduce her by any means possible.
Check.. đź’­

I believe your mind was set on a conquest, a plan was formulated. Once that plan was put into action, it flowed through you, effortlessly. You’ve been tireless.
I admit, I rather like this game of chase, it feels good not only to be desired, but to be in absolute control of it. We don’t move until I said move. 

And you, so charmingly persistent and on your best behavior…

I see through your chivalry- I feel what you crave-I crave too

but I  know you like the thrill of the hunt–the chase, the conquest — the more challenging the pursuit, the better… the thought of the pursuer and the pursued. 
I let you give chase, giving you a run for your money–but you’re gaining on me.

I’m  unable to ward off your sweet nothing proposals and promises;  I’ve lost the ability to thwart your advances.

Or maybe I just lost the desire to resist you.

Your presence over time has overwhelmed me, broken my defences-I can feel myself being consumed by you. I have no choice but to accept defeat, and surrender myself totally to you…

To be continued…

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Choice

Telephone booth, c. 1970 Goksin Sipahioglu

He loved her, of course, but better than that, he chose her, day after day, Choice: that was the thing.

Sherman Alexie 

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What if we are the Answer?

What if all we have ever wanted
isn,t hiding in some
secret and far away dream
but inside of us now
as we breathe one another
and find home in the way
our arms always seem to fit
perfectly around the spaces
between us?
What if we are the answer 
and love was the question?
What if all this time
it was us you were supposed 
to find?
I am filled with wonderings
questions and doubt
but of one thing I am certain:
it will always be you
that gives flight to the 
butterflies inside me, 
calm to the sea I have become
and hope to the darkness
all around us.
It is you and it has always 
been you…
you.
You that soothes and excites 
and spreads joy like rainfall 
on the already damp earth;
You that pulled me from the longest 
sleep and kissed my tired eyelids
awake.
If life is a question mark, 
then you my love,
are the proud and bold period 
that is typed with certainty

.

Tyler Knott Gregson

Okay

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Contemplating

and I know I swore to you i’d be ok but sometimes ok isn’t as happy as it seems. sometimes
ok is broken promises and wasted nights lying on the floor waiting for someone to find you
sometimes ok is hoping he won’t leave when you tell him you’ve done it again and you’re so

very sorry sometimes ok is hoping that one day you’ll be “normal” that maybe one day you
saying that you’re ok will actually mean that you’re fine.

Mae Krell

#Stop22ADay

Saving You

The darkness takes him over,
the sickness pulls him in;
his eyes—a blown out candle,
I wish to go with him.

Sometimes I see a flicker—
a light that shone from them;
I hold him to me tightly,
before he’s gone again.
By Lang Leav
#ptsd

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walked into love

“I didn’t fall in love with you. I walked into love with you, with my eyes wide open, choosing to take every step along the way. I do believe in fate and destiny, but I also believe we are only fated to do the things that we’d choose anyway. And I’d choose you; in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality, I’d find you and I’d choose you”

― Kiersten White, The Chaos of Stars

your dangerous chaos

your dangerous chaos was

a danger to my beautiful

ordinary life, and i knew 

that. then suddenly, we

became beautifully 

extraordinary together.

~r.m. drake

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dance with me…

 

 

“We will run and scream, you will dance with me,we’ll fulfill our dreams and we’ll be free.”

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Image  Couples dancing in Van Nuys, California, 1959. Photo by Yale Joel for Life magazine.

It wasn’t that simple

“She loved him and he loved her,

But it wasn’t that simple.”

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just like that

And just like that, he picked her up and dusted her off.

Without even trying. That’s how their love was.

When she was at her worst,

he saw her at her best.

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A resting place

 

“We find rest in those we love,

and we provide a resting place

in ourselves for those who love us.” 

~Saint Bernard Of Calirvaux quotes

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Somewhere, Someone

“Somewhere
someone
thinks they love
someone else
exactly like
I 
love you.
Somewhere
someone shakes
from the ripple
of a thousand butterflies
inside a
single stomach.
Somewhere
someone
is packing their
bags
to see the world
with someone
else.
Somewhere
someone
is reaching through
the most
terrifying few
feet of space
to hold the
hand
of someone
else.
Somewhere
someone
is watching
someone else’s
chest
rise and fall
with the 
breath
of slumber.
Somewhere
someone 
is pouring
ink like blood
onto pages
fighting
to say the truth
that has
no words.
Somewhere
someone
is waiting
patient
but exhausted
to just
be
with someone
else.
Somewhere
someone
is opening
their eyes
to a sunrise
in someplace
they have never
seen.
Somewhere
someone
is pulling out 
the petals
twisting the
apple stem
picking up
the heads up penny
rubbing the
rabbits foot
knocking on
wood
throwing
coins into
fountains
hunting for
the only clover
with only 4 leaves
skipping over
the cracks
snapping the 
wishbone
crossing their
fingers
blowing out
the candles
sending dandelion
seeds into the
air
ushering eyelashes
off their thumbs
finding the first
star
and waiting for
11:11 on
their clock
to spend their 
wishes
on someone
else.
Somewhere
someone
is saying
goodbye
but somewhere
someone else
is saying
hello.
Somewhere
someone
is sharing their first
or their last
kiss
with their
or no longer their
someone
else.
Somewhere
someone
is wondering
if how they feel
is how the other
they
feels about them
and if both theys
could ever become
a they
together.
Somewhere
someone
is the decoder ring
to all of 
the great mysteries
of life
for someone
else.
Somewhere
someone
is the treasure map.
Somewhere
someone
thinks they love
someone else
exactly like
I 
love you.
Somewhere
someone
is wrong.” 
― Tyler Knott Gregson

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Promise me

“Promise me
you will not spend
so much time
treading water and trying to keep your
head above the waves
that you forget,
truly forget,
how much you have
always loved
to swim.”
~Tyler Knott Gregson

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Think of you

“Go to work. Eat. Dream. Try to sleep.

Think of you.

Count the stars. Wake up.

Think of you.

Be here. Listen to what they’re saying.

Think of you.

Cook. Read. Watch TV.

Think of you.

Pay attention.

I’m thinking of you.”

― pleasefindthis, I Wrote This For You

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